Hopes and Dreams

I finally realized what eternal loneness feels like. I respect all others who want to be happy. Happiness for some, is being alone. Some people like me chose, or some times people like me have no choice, but to be happy, when someone comes to you and tells you she loves you. I long for the day someone comes to me and says, " I love you and I can't breathe without you."
Those words are like music to my ears. Those words are dreams to me. She's a dream to me. She'll mean the world to me.
If we were together, tears of joy would fall from my eyes, and I would fall down to my knees and pray everyday that God keeps us together, but alas, we aren't together we are apart, everyday instead of praying that we stay together...
I pray that God brings us together, and instead of tears of joy, tears of loneness and tears of sadness fall from my eyes.
I continue to dream of being together. I continue to dream of happiness. To some a dream is a dream, a fallen tear is just a tear, words are nothing more than words. To them I am wasting my time, their time, my intelligence, their intelligence, and my talents. I wasting them by trying to find that special one and be happy with her.
I don't think I'm wasting my time because I can only be truly happy with someone like that. Those are the only hopes and dreams I have for now. In the future I know I will have more hopes and dreams but for now this is it.
She will become my life line, maybe later I will be her life line. I have always been taught to be independent but for now I need her in my life, I need her love to keep me going strong. Just a tear, I have a lot, words are nothing more than words. I hope my words will make you understand how I feel, but for now this is it..